_me 200,000 minutes later_

but indeed, it's really sad. 

I think in a world where the battle of 'whose hands hold the real truth?' is raging,  attitude matters a lot. This is one reason I really appreciate what Rev. said tonight, holding the banner of truth to win them also in love. Rod of Iron that crushes, I believe on God's side is authority yet with meekness. But on the other side is brutality and lack of mercy. 

To seek Truth, I believe we must first be humble, sincere, inquisitive and fearful. Yet these are not enough, if you're like me, you tried and gave up but heaven had mercy upon you. 

In reality though, heaven must have mercy upon you. And that is entirely God's choice to have mercy upon those He will have mercy. 

If that is the case, we should be very careful around matters of truth. If the owner gives it to who He wills, we cannot become over-entitled; though God ordained for all men to come to know the truth. Yet it could have been us speaking against truth but glory to God. 

I believe it begins by acknowledging there is God. Then going on to see the kind of God you are referring to, cus many people believe there is God but it is not the true God. 

Next lies the matter of the True God. You can't find Him if you're proud. Pharoah was very proud, He saw that this God is powerful but refused to acknowledge Him and eventually met his end. He came from a people who believed in many gods, like a pantheon, so the supernatural was not strange to him; but he could not stop and consider what manner of God this was and check again?

These recent conversations call for sincerity. I know say my knee bend some time ago the last time this wave came around. But God is merciful. I felt I was attacked too sha. 

But we must check our hearts again, not to start doubting truth, but to sincerely keep holding onto the mercy we have found. 

Many of us have lingua, myself inclusive, but how much of Spirit have we carried? Breath? So that we will not assume where we stand in the face of a storm and end up falling yakata.

Be a seeker. A humble seeker, and tie that desire to love found in God. 

Pharisees and Saducees are what we could call theologians of their time, well versed in the law and the prophets. Yet Jesus came and said they erred in the same scriptures and at another point said, they don't even know the scriptures. What was the end? They wan kill Jesus.  The people who defended the gospel were not as versed as them, but had breath and it surpassed them.

Somewhere there, I wanted to see whether I should start learning theology to have answers to use to answer these arguments but I remember that the great apostles were majorly fishermen. He that is within us is greater than he that is in the world. That does not neglect learning sha. I think the apostles also studied as they grew too cus I'm not sure if it would have been sensible if they just didn't do any studying of the law and prophets at all. 

Also, blindness is bad. Don't hate the people speaking or speak rashly back to them. Rather fear for them knowing that what we also say must come from authority of understanding. 

I felt for these men speaking against Egfm; our Fathers in the body of Christ, those with evident walk with God have that fear and trembling nature. From my observation, they don't have all the light and revelation, but they have clear bond with Jesus. They don't approach matters of truth rashly, especially the older they grow. They even apologise when they are wrong. When we are so confident that we lack fear in matters relating to truth, disaster is doing press-up on our doorstep. 

I sha hope what I said made the sense I'm thinking I'm making. If not, please correct my head o. Anything I said that is doing bende pose, please correct me o. Orisirisi is flying in the air this season, so I thank God for this space. 

My prayer for everyone and especially for myself is that we will not be lazy to seek well.