Whoever loses their lives will gain it

Whoever gains their lives will lose it 

I have feared the loss of my life 

I have feared the loss of my time

I have feared the loss of my convenience 

The loss of my future

The loss of my ambition 

The loss of my glory 


I have feared being pulled back 

Being slowed down 

And being held back 

By His apprehension 

By this three triangular box 

He has cautiously handcrafted for me 

I have feared the blurriness of my future 

If I choose to stay

Be satisfied 

And not be offended in Him


But now He tells me 

I'll lose my life if I keep the fear,

That the gain of now that I want 

Will lead me to lose my life 

which I've cautiously feared for


In this I humbly pray 

To graciously lay me down
 
Like a sheep before the shearer

To put the fear away 

And desire to truly lose it 

That my desire every waking day

Is for opportunities for

The loss of my life 

To find me 

And that when they find me 

I joyfully lay me down 

Giving thanks for mercy provided me
 
To die daily.